I feel like a fucking waste. I have achieved nothing in life. I was educated in a good school and went to one of the best colleges. I had loving parents and siblings, but I was a misfit everywhere. I absorbed all of the bad but none of the good stuck to me. My friends […]

The bewitching hour

I wanted to capture the essense of a temptation gone wrong.  The seduction is so much stronger and powerfull when you spend  time reading the Bible, no matter how saturated  you are with the ill effects of porn. When you read the Bible, all of the images that you got so worn out with will […]


Revulsion: A sense of disgust and loathing. This is what I felt a little after I wrote the last piece. You see you can write all you want about overcoming sin, but when you are on the spot, it becomes extremely difficult to say no. I keep coming back to this blog, because I don’t […]

The sin of being me: addendum

11 Because they rebelled against the words of God, and despised the counsel of the Most High, 12 Therefore He brought down their heart with labor; They fell down, and there was none to help. 13 Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, And He saved them out of their distresses. 14 […]

The sin of being me

  Recently I happened to be listening to a YouTube video on C.S Lewis To be honest, it was a little too dense for me. but one thing really caught my attention was the relativity of our sins. Jesus says “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven” (Matthew 5:3). According […]

Christ Unlike

Even though I was born a christian, I accepted Jesus when I was in my early tweens , when I attended a Pentecostal meeting. I was very happy at the time and I loved reading the Bible. As I blossomed into teenage, the world opened up, so many new things…. I couldn’t say “NO” to. […]


I screwed up and I was in hiding, much like Adam was. I know that you never made that deal with me. Time heals a lot of things except for the sins that we commit, but silly me thinks that, if I have time on my side, then eventually GOD will forget my sin, just […]

The Necrosis of my SOUL.

The liberal media paint a glossy picture of pornography and masturbation. In my lifetime there were at least a few people who advocated the use of masturbation and porn, that it helps to relieve stress and sexual frustration. My first experience with porn was a life changer. The first time I saw a naked picture […]